Glad you posted. What you post will help others. I have 39 days sober now. It has been tough but I have already seen some benefits from not drinking. There have been times where it feels I’m stepping on rakes (and getting hit square in the forehead), but I have to focus on how things will get better if I continue to stay with AA and workbon my sobriety daily. It is a daily thing. I would definitely recommend you attend AA meetings in your area if you can. Those person to person meetings I did not like at first. And sometimes still do not like them. But they have helped. Just keep going and keep going back. Even when you don’t want to be there. You can do this. Lord, if I can. Anyone can. I hope yo hear more from you. Keep coming back.