I remember being confused as well. What I needed was someone who has had an experience with the steps and share it with me. I have worked the 12 steps of AA by using the Big Book and a Sponsor. I needed to read the book and then have my Sponsor share his experience with me. His experience made it easier for me to understand the directions in the book. You are taking a great first step and reaching out for help. Stay in touch and we are here to help!