I had to believe that there was something greater than me working and trust the process. I kept seeing all these people who were happy and they told me to start small and work big. It’s a process…progress not perfection! 🙂 I went 90 and 90 for meetings to keep out of my own head and staring talking to EVERYONE in the fellowship to pull all ideas to get my head in the right place and keep working on what I needed to do to stay sober. Go to meetings, get a sponsor and be of service!