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Heidi Quist

Hey Yellow…how is it going?? I saw your post with Tom and it brought me back to a little over 5 years ago when I first was walking into a creepy basement of a church I didn’t know, with people that were staring at me(so I thought) and dingy smell of coffee and smoke(I smoke so I’m not saying it’s a bad thing I just could smell it everywhere). I was sweating bullets…I didn’t want to introduce myself and I didn’t want to talk about anything going on in my head…heaven forbid I talk about feelings, I hated it! When I got into the room I saw all these people hugging and going on about how everyone’s day was…okay, how do I fit in here…I don’t even like TALKING about my feelings how am I going to ever HUG someone!? I understand how you aren’t at the step yet…I don’t think I really was even when I walked in but I knew I didn’t want to die so it was either creepy basement or 8 feet under…the creepy basement seemed like a better idea! I am so grateful for that day…it changed my life forever! Happy, sober and free for over 5 years now! 🙂 I hope you are doing well and look forward to hearing how your days are going! Heidi