I use to struggle with the same thing my first 2 years in sobriety…where am I going, what am I doing..I just kept showing up and those questions stopped coming as soon as I stopped caring and just knew that I was on the right path. I have been struggling lately too as I have been very sick, and continue to be sick…why am I sick, what purpose is this serving? I just want to be better and get out of what is going on but I am reminded by my sponsor that in time it will it’s just right now this is how it’s gonna be and I have to be okay with that because when I fight back is when I take my will back. I hope all is well…keep showing up! Thanks for the post, I needed to read this today!