I beat myself up so much inside over my use, I was uncomfortable and hating myself for it in my own skin, a self sentence of dum for it and worthless. Only through connection do I stay reminded of that throughout time, so I seek my way out. If I am not connected to recovery and so importantly real people in my outside life too, each time I loose…[Read more]

all I know is when I decided I want to smile when I look around, about life laughter and positive possibility instead of focusing on that negative of falling, there was a certain high there. It helps me to not think about using, or drinking, at least temporarily I smiled because I was seeking it in me, not outside me, just for now, just for today,…[Read more]