Awesome share!! Even though you may be going through a really hard time now and for the last 40 years you are doing the next right thing by reaching out and sharing your story. I can share my experience…I went to meetings/ online meetings, got involved in AA, got a sponsor and kept doing the next right thing. It was amazing how my life changed and turned around for the better. Can’t wait to hear more of your shares in the forum! Keep it up people love to respond and hear others in their journey! Have a great day!