I am a mother of a son who is in recovery and has been for 5 years. Every day I am grateful for his health. The fog has lifted….still gets cloudy. Looking back right now the road was pretty rough. I suggest Al Anon for you. I felt helpless in the craziness that comes from living with addiction. I continue to “work the program.” I NEVER would give up. I NEVER quit loving him. I didn’t really know the kind of help The Retreat offers was available until we finally drove there.